Saturday, September 11, 2010
Evolution
It seems like I have almost gotten over best friend. Though I'll still think of her sometimes but the frequency has decreased. Probably it's due to prelims. I don't know if its for good or for bad, but I'll felt like I'm freed, no longer being chained to her. Maybe, it's because I'm starting to give up. She seemed too distant to me. Even if we are physically near each other, but our hearts are separated. Maybe, that's fate. Like I once said, not knowing is greatest obstacle. It's not her fault either, I can only blame myself for not making use of any chances bestowed upon me. She came to my class so many times despite knowing that I like her and I didn't even tried to stay close or even tried to avoid her. Anyway, I wish I can get over it soon.
Prelims are around the corner and everyone has being studying very hard. However, there are some of them who are studying so hard that I find it really really disgusting. As though they may burn out anytime. Well, I'll try my best not to compare. I will not burn myself out. There are a few things that I have learnt. You must enjoy doing the things you are doing so that you can perform well. No point being stressed and upset because it doesn't help you at all. One more thing. Its not about the quantity but the quality. This is what I have been telling myself for the past few months to console myself. Seems like it's having a little more effect. Sometimes I want to score well to impress people. Thinking back, i feel that it's stupid. I should be doing well for my own sake and not for others.
Today has been a great day. It was rather productive even though i started studying quite late. Tomorrow I going to do the same thing again. I'm going to study alone again because I'm not disturbed, not as distracted and I'm free to think of anything I want at anytime. Sounds cool right? Solitude is just too good. Well, I'm going to sleep! That's all for the moment!
Labels: BF, Work
Innocence
10:34 PM
