Friday, July 9, 2010
Break
Hehe Finally back to blogging after a century has passed. These past few months was a very hectic period for me. Lots of studying, revising and climbing. Now that I have stepped down and BT2 is over, lots of stress and burdens are slowing disappearing. Nevertheless, I must be consistent with my work and revision, although I would not put in as much effort as compared to June holidays. It wasn't really a holiday since i go back school to study everyday, but well, it's quite pretty relaxed to go school just to do revision on your own unlike normal school days.
As for best friend, nothing has changed. No improvements at all for me. Who else can I blame but to blame myself for being such a coward. Maybe if she was my friend, I could have told her much more easily, but then, we are not even friends! Sigh, I've been praying for her well being almost everyday, hopefully she can smile and be happy everyday. Something is definitely wrong with me. I want to see her and know her so much every single day and yet every time she is nearby or when she is talking to MEF, I would try and avoid her. I need to do some soul searching seriously. For now, I can only stand back and look at her. Sigh, so powerless.
For the past 2 weeks, I have been having problems sleeping at night. Somehow I'm always feeling so hot and it makes it so difficult to sleep. Furthermore, I can't get my mind to stopping thinking about whatever is there to think about when I'm trying to sleep. There was once I even had to count sheeps to help me to sleep. I had count till more than 400 sheeps. One last thing. I had not been exercising for so many weeks because of BT2. All my muscles are softening and my stamina is decreasing exponentially. This is worrisome, because it takes so many months to get till that level of fitness but it only takes a few weeks to return to square one. I need to make more time to do more physical training. Hopefully this won't take too much of my revision time. Hehe thats all for now!!! Wonder when will be the next time i sign in. o.O
~Vin~
Innocence
8:45 PM
